"Imperfection is beauty, madness is genius and its better to be absolutely ridiculous than absolutely boring"
The quote says it all, Marilyn Monroe knew how a woman's mind works and what a woman desires at all times.
Jessica Monteiro
A young teenager soon turning 17 years old. Jessica loves life, her friends and most of her family, without forgetting the boyfriend.
I remember myself small but a rebel, I continue small but now I have calmed down a little
not enough to be seen as the good girl, but sufficient to be a student that does not visit the deputy head everyday! When I look back to my past.. I was far away from here: in Portugal. I had a million friends and even fans, people who considered me
their hero, the one they looked up for; odd.
Life in Holland: it is so simple and true friends there's only some. Nowadays I care about things, my studies, my future, my savings... There's so much to know, yet you'll never know...
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{quarta-feira, 14 de abril de 2010} 11:41
Sometimes I feel like shit, sometimes i feel like a bird, sometimes i feel lucky.
I feel lucky all the time for having you, although not for having the mother i do.
Loving you is the only thing that always makes me smile, its something that has been proved.
Life as its period when everything goes wrong except loving you, that is always perfect.
I don't get it, am I seen as the bad one because I've done mistakes in life?
Am I seen as the unfortunate one, for not having a father?
Do people look at me differently for having a fucked up mother, who I am embarrassed of?
Somebody tell me! What did I ever do wrong?
I gave it some many tries already and it never becomes the way I want it to be.
It has never become the way it used to be.
I want the old secondary school friends, here close to me, to live it up together.
They would love you, you would maybe find them different.
But I would be the happiest girl, just like I am when I am with you and only you!
I need bright weather, beaches, parks, clean air, the smell of the sea water, the horses at QPA.
I need so much more than I have...
Oh if I lived with you!
Everything would be so much better.
No mother to argue with, no family to hear fight, no untidy house, no laziness that leads you to nothing.
A house with brown or white sofas, a fluffy modern carpet, a king-sized bed, a heated pool and a double douche...
Everything that we ever wished for, will one day come true, we just have to wait until the day we can.
I want the perfect life to come soon, the maturity to be revealed!
All of this in about 3 to 4 years... for us its EASY!
He is the perfect boyfriend. I have met him in Queen's Day 2009 and since then everything has been wonderful by his side. Starting a life with him as been the most concrete decision I have ever made, and there is nothing to regret about it.
I love him. He is the only person that even though can hurt me the most, will always make me smile, since it is enough for him to come close and comfort me, when i need it.
Fashion and Art
To study fashion is my plan for 2012. Hopefully will get accepted at AMFI (Amsterdam Fashion Institute) and will start a future from there on. I have however started doing more than just dreaming, sketching and
creating is part of my life already at the ISH (International School Hilversum).
Friendship...
I must say there is a lot of important friends in my life, however my boyfriend and family are also friends to me, obviously. Therefore I will not be talking about everyone in particular, yet some. Whenever I am down
there is always somebody ready to listen to me and nowadays that is Eva, since she is the closest by I can get into contact with easily. However, I know back there, in Portugal I have lovely people always waiting for
me to get back. Friends will forever be friends.