and summer holidays are coming..
It's one of the moments I don't know if I should cry, laugh, smile or ignore.
It's difficult and I believe, impossible to explain it the way it actually is, bu let's be honest from now on.
I miss talking to you about everything, I miss it, let's face it.
But whatever, life moves on.
There's him and him, two of them that make me go crazier everyday.
In a couple of weeks I will have to be strong, not let tears drop, not let my feelings screw everything up, just look into your eyes, talk and see what is going to happen from then on. It's going to be difficult, yes, because you are special to me, just like I am to you, but decisions in life have to be made, and this is the time for our big decision to be made.
I wish I could have everything I could in life, but there's so much that is not even possible, like wanting you and not being able to have you. Like feeling your touch but still thinking it's not enough, wishing for more...
The sneaky words you used to describe you point, describe your dreams, well, the holiday that you dreamed of, that will hopefully not turn out to be true, eventhough it will be hard, for both of us.
Back to the point I need to get over it, there's him, i like him, and I don't have you to talk about it with. I wouldn't say come back, but i miss you.
I do want my own world, choose everyone i want to live in it, and everyone to get along with eachother, with no regrets and loads of good memories.
And then there's childhood, when problems were extreme, and personalities were incredible. But what you want after all?
My looks? You can get better.
My friends? They are also yours.
So i don't know. Let me not think bad about you, but WHY DO YOU TAKE YOUR SHIRT OFF EVERYTIME YOU GO ON WEBCAM?