The quote says it all, Marilyn Monroe knew how a woman's mind works and what a woman desires at all times.
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Jessica Monteiro
A young teenager soon turning 17 years old. Jessica loves life, her friends and most of her family, without forgetting the boyfriend.
I remember myself small but a rebel, I continue small but now I have calmed down a little
not enough to be seen as the good girl, but sufficient to be a student that does not visit the deputy head everyday! When I look back to my past.. I was far away from here: in Portugal. I had a million friends and even fans, people who considered me
their hero, the one they looked up for; odd.
Life in Holland: it is so simple and true friends there's only some. Nowadays I care about things, my studies, my future, my savings... There's so much to know, yet you'll never know...
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another new beginning
{domingo, 29 de agosto de 2010} 11:35
hello there,
so we all know that since now things will become harder to survive, school gets harder, and life as well. I am opting to choose into a better life, with less problems, let's make it happen. There are many goals that I am hoping to conquer, and many people that I am risking to show who I am to.
Getting a job would be a first step to this, en counting the babysitting, cleaning job.
Then modifying my room is another goal, just as studying every week, having it scheduled and what so ever...
Like learning dutch, it's a goal that I wish I could be done with in days, and the same goes to him.
From tomorrow onwards we will do this!
where will take us?
{segunda-feira, 9 de agosto de 2010} 14:48
It's been weeks and weeks with no one day out, I don't like thinking negative you know it, makes me sad, upset and cry, so I often just don't say anything. Although now it came to a point it happens everyday and the truth as to be said, so i question: "Where will this take us?" We seem to always survive from it, but it doesn't make it any better. There are tones that I have fixed in life, so it would work forever, but you... you don't seem to think that you should put that much effort into it. One single change was enough for you, eh? Well it shouldn't be like that. I know it not always an obligation, but I hate going against your word, so I do it anyways if it makes you happy. I've learnt a lot from you, and always seen you as a great person, now you're changing and I am realizing the baby I have home, you know what I am mentioning... it's not great. Well an idea, maybe you should follow my examples and have a day a week which you can take a break to do such 'hobbies'. You should grow up in order to continue it the right way.
PS: I love you
it broke.
{domingo, 8 de agosto de 2010} 16:22
It was for me just like a bomb had landed in front of me and the world had stoped for a while! I felt sad, tears approached my eyes and they ran down my cheeks. I can say: I've never felt so naked in my whole entire life.
if you are what you say you are
{domingo, 18 de julho de 2010} 15:41
you know, i juts wrote you a love card... it doesn't explain it all but i am scared, i don't know of what but everything around me, something weird, from the other world; you tell me?
this call hurt, it really did, those words were not the usual non of them have been lately, what is wrong? i don't want anything to be gone along the wrong path, i want thing to be good and perfect forever, just like life; i want to live it forever.
Please, read this, do it! I want you to be like you were show the love, the interest you had for having me like that, now its just so simple.. its this, that and that and you're already doing too much effort eh?! Nothing I like you like, nothing I wan to do interests you, you don't follow my opinions for any longer... what's the matter???
baby dont stop loving me now, continue it strongly till the end...
So hard to survive!
{segunda-feira, 31 de maio de 2010} 02:23
It's not just like that, it is not easy to live here without thinking about you and those people I wish I could see with my own vision. I feel uncomfortable with everything I do, everything I say, just because you are gone. It seemed like it was going to last short, and I thought I would be the strongest, but I FAILED. I am crying for you everyday every time without being able to hesitate it, being without you its the hardest thing to do.
I have put everything behind, its sad, I don't recognize myself anymore. You are gone and myself is hidden, its weird how you can change so much, hopefully it won't change forever, but once you are back we will see. I don't eat, nor drink, nor work, I just don't have the energy to do so like that, I can't be stronger no more!
I LOVE YOU ♥
9 perfect months ♥
{domingo, 30 de maio de 2010} 12:53
I've finally realized after a not so good moody day.. "Hey it's our 9 month I should be happy and cheer up, think about when you come back we will have the time of our lives again, without having to miss you again!"
I've also realized that when you are back here with me, I will be able to surprise you with some things (I will make time for everything), we can both look forward to leave on SUMMER 2010 HOLIDAY!!! ♥
You will be meeting my family, just some, but still the wonderful aunt I got, Paula Rutty, the one that's obsessed about you, you know... But the real truth is that we all just love you so much, that we all go crazy! Special I, I would... aaah - EAT YOU!
"And I need you now, and I don't know how I can do without, I just need you now" - this just played on the itunes, and its so true! Life without you would be impossible, its only been 3 days and I would die till you came just so I would not have to miss you, it hurts so badly not being with you.
But HEY 9 PERFECTAMAZINGWONDERFULSPECIALLOVELYADORABLEPOSSIBLEUNDEFINABLEETC MONTHS WITH YOU! ♥
I LOVE YOU BABY, FOR THE REST OF OUR LIVES, TOGETHER FOREVER ♥
*pinky promise*
so much too miss...
{quinta-feira, 27 de maio de 2010} 06:21
Dear Love,
I am writing this post and entirely dedicating it to you. I want you to know that I love you the most, I cannot imagine anyone that loves like I do towards you! I enjoyed it last night for the short while you stayed... and then you left. Saying good bye really hurt, and now I remember and I cry; I am not looking forward to miss you for 15 days!
Your favorite teddy is stuck between two things you love and you wanted to take with to Kos, any idea? I will sleep everyday with the little family and never forget about you, you are the ideal boyfriend that I always wished for.
♥ YOU ARE MY PERFECT PRINCE ♥
Love me forever, because I will do so back too (L)
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Boy Koppenol
He is the perfect boyfriend. I have met him in Queen's Day 2009 and since then everything has been wonderful by his side. Starting a life with him as been the most concrete decision I have ever made, and there is nothing to regret about it.
I love him. He is the only person that even though can hurt me the most, will always make me smile, since it is enough for him to come close and comfort me, when i need it.
Fashion and Art
To study fashion is my plan for 2012. Hopefully will get accepted at AMFI (Amsterdam Fashion Institute) and will start a future from there on. I have however started doing more than just dreaming, sketching and
creating is part of my life already at the ISH (International School Hilversum).
Friendship...
I must say there is a lot of important friends in my life, however my boyfriend and family are also friends to me, obviously. Therefore I will not be talking about everyone in particular, yet some. Whenever I am down
there is always somebody ready to listen to me and nowadays that is Eva, since she is the closest by I can get into contact with easily. However, I know back there, in Portugal I have lovely people always waiting for
me to get back. Friends will forever be friends.
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